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January 6, 2011

Happy New Year!

Happy New Year everyone (all 3 or 4 of you) :-)

Seeing your comments compelled me to write.  I've been very nervous for the past 10 weeks as though I'm waiting for the sky to fall.  I know I shouldn't think that way but I have a little post traumatic stress as a result of this past year (the worst of my life thus far).

Things have been going well lately though and the year ended in a complete 180 degrees from how it started.  I am pregnant with twins! I can't wrap my head around it.

Tonight I received my first bag of maternity hand-me-downs. This is the start of me embracing my pregnancy and enjoying it (which is another reason I'm writing).  I'm still nervous and I have many obstacles to overcome but it looks as though this is really happening.

So far everything is proceeding perfectly normal.  Two weeks away from completeing my first trimester I still weigh exactly 190 with an occasional 189.  Actually just a day ago I noticed my appetite coming back.  I haven't had morning sickness (same with my first pregnancy) I just haven't had much of a taste for anything.  

Managing my weight this time is extremely important for my health and safety as well as the babies. It is going to be a challenge.  I can hardly imagine how i'm going to be able to stand by the end of this.

There is going to be so much to write about, my life is going to be changing so much.  My mind goes a little blank or numb when I think about still.  I think I just have to let it unfold and see where it leads me. 

Posted by hopeful @ January 6, 2011 11:19 PM