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September 27, 2010

Nope

I didn't get pregnant.

I'm so sad. I'm scared about facing the possibility that this may not be possible for me.
I don't even want to think about that now.

It feels similar to losing my mother, I feel devastated, scared, lost... A piece of me gone. Or something, it feels huge and heavy, yet like a void at the same time.

I wish I could take some time off, time to just sleep and quiet my mind. Take a breather to recoup and then get back on with my life.

I know my life is going to be good. But right now I feel so sad. I feel sad for my daughter. I know her life is going to be great too.

I'm not done trying yet. And I know I'll be able to adjust to the outcome, it'll just take a bit.

Posted by hopeful @ September 27, 2010 10:11 AM