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June 16, 2009

I need to start this again

I'm cringing as I say this but I need to start making efforts, watching what I eat, and start writing about it again. I have been stagnant for too long. To clarify that, my weight hasn't budged but I've been floundering through many failed attempts at getting back on a successfully moving wagon.

I haven't been completely inactive. I just did a 5k this past weekend and I get in anywhere from 1 to 3 or 4 runs per week. But I counter any activity with a lot of eating. Thank goodness my weight hasn't gone up, but it's far from going down.

I want to do better in these races and I know it's killing me to run with all this weight. There's no doubt in my mind that cutting 10 or more pounds would drastically improve my ability and times.

I've been wanting to eat so much lately and craving fattening, salty foods. Whenever I'm watching TV, I know I shouldn't eat anymore for the day but I don't stop thinking about what I want to eat until I am actually chomping on it.

I know all that I can do is say enough is enough and do things differently. Right now it seems like a near impossible task.

I want to lose 40 pounds.

Can I do this. (I'm kind of afraid to make that a question).

Posted by hopeful @ June 16, 2009 12:10 AM