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July 17, 2008

Uuggh, quick update

Last week I didn’t workout at all. This week we’re getting back on track but I’m still feeling the repercussions from last week.

Mentally I’m a little insane. I’ve been overwhelmed from working so much and without my exercise to help calm my crazies I’m not feeling great. I have been eating to relax. I don’t want to do that, I just do.

So the update on my weight is that I’m at 182 again. I feel bloated. It struck me last night when I went to my sister’s salon and caught a glimpse of myself in every mirror that I looked heavy.

I feel like I’m running down a steep hill and my legs are barely able to keep up with my torso. I’m on the verge of flipping forward into a massive tumble. Stress has been getting to me lately and I need to regroup and recover. I think I need to sleep all weekend.

I know this has happened to me a million times and it’s nothing new or exciting but I feel the need to post just so that I don’t recede into a denial or anything like that. I can find myself going quiet when I don’t want to acknowledge or think about it. It’s helpful just to put it out there.

Posted by hopeful @ July 17, 2008 9:11 AM