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June 25, 2008

Happy birthday me

SparkPeople sent me a birthday email and I love what it says. I'm a little emotional today because I'm not loving the larger number of my age and I'm entering that T.O.M (which sucks because I am really trying to get prego.) Maybe that is why I was extra moved by the birthday message. But truthfully, for a while now I have been moving in the corn-ball direction and trying to remind myself daily of the principles mentioned below.

What matters most in life is often viewed as peripheral to the things that we usually focus on. Passion takes a backseat to production, wellness to working, and balance to busyness. The old adage that “life is not a dress rehearsa” is so true, and yet we act to the contrary by putting off what is truly important or indulging in things that are not. On your birthday, stop focusin on your age and start meditating on your life at this exact moment. How can you make it better? During the next year, reshuffle your priorities. Spend more time with family and friends, take care of your body and health by eating well and exercising regularly, and offer to help others in need. Discover what matters most to you , and make your daily life into a true reflection of those ideas, beliefs, and attitudes.

I might read this every day for the next year and see if it really changes me.

Working out is still going strong and awesome. I weighed in at 179 this morning.
Happy Birthday

Posted by hopeful @ 11:05 AM • Comments (2)

June 19, 2008

Not so steady

Yeah, I’m no longer holding so steady. My weight has crept back up to 180 as of this morning. I had been avoiding that scale like I have my exercising over the past nearly two weeks (until this week).

We’re back on track, thanks to my workout partner. We had been derailed by her vacation and the last week of school, it was so hectic. But she motivated me this week with a whole new schedule that involves all morning workouts. We’ll be doing five days a week and a little bit of everything, so it’s less monotonous. So far we’ve done every day and it felt good (not like a nightmare).

I’ve become really dependent on her as my motivation for working out. I never imagined that I would enjoy having a workout partner. Right now I’m surprised I even breathe without her.

I wish I could find a partner who would hold my hands through other aspects of my life.

Posted by hopeful @ 11:54 AM • Comments (2)

June 4, 2008

Surprisingly holding steady

I’ve been having a little difficulty recovering from the Memorial Day weekend (yes, a week and a half ago). To celebrate with my family I brought some food purchased at Costco to my grandma’s. I had enormous size bags of chips and dip among other things and when the festivities where over I brought home the leftovers and I’ve been eating them ever since. Well, they’re gone now and surprisingly I weighed 178 today. I’ve also skipped a few workouts and that made me even more afraid to face the scale.

I guess it takes a little longer for me to get derailed than it used to. Behavior like that previously mentioned isn’t helping with my weight loss progress but it doesn’t set me back either. Today I feel better towards making progress again.

I wasn’t mentally with it over the past week either and that’s why I didn’t write at all. Maybe it would have helped if I had. It was that time of the month and it just got to me and I wasn’t motivated.

In reflecting on my emotions over the past month I can tell the rollercoaster is increasingly less dramatic. It’s still a rollercoaster, but it moves slower and the peaks and valleys have less contrast between them. That’s all good.

And best of all, lately people have been commenting that I’m looking smaller yet which surprises me a bit because there hasn’t been much change in my weight. Maybe it’s my demeanor.

Posted by hopeful @ 3:34 PM