Hopeful Loser

Over the past couple of days I’ve been feeling a little better. I have more of an appetite and my shakes have diminished.

I’ve called in the big guns and will see a therapist for six sessions (dictated by my health insurance) to determine my next course of action depending on how it goes. The first session, I had verbal diarrhea and it felt so good. For next time I plan on collecting my thoughts so that I can sound more coherent. My health insurance also requested that I get signed off by a cardiologist before proceeding with an exercise plan. I guess they want to be sure that some of my anxiety symptoms aren’t actually a REAL heart attack. That will put my mind at ease too because I, of course, think they’re real.

I went into the office today and everything went well and was nice. I perfectly faked total confidence. I’m a little tapped out from computer overload but wanted to give a brief update. Thanks everyone for your concern and advice.

Tomorrow I have the day off to prepare for my daughter’s birthday on Saturday. I have to replicate a SpongeBob cake that I made to near perfection in the trial run. My ‘day of’s never go like my trial runs. If my liquid eyeliner fiasco is any example, the night before I looked like Audrey Hepburn and the day of I looked like Amy Winehouse after she had been hit by a bus.

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So glad to hear you are talking to someone about this. I think getting checked out by a cardiologist is a great thing, especially if the insurance company is paying. It will put your mind at ease at least about your heart.

The cake looks brilliant!!! Great job!!

Posted by: Diana the Scale Junkie at February 1, 2008 10:51 AM

That is your trial cake? You do a TRIAL CAKE?

We have a favorite saying around our house "you get what you get, and you don't throw a fit." I made the cake for my first son's first birthday.....I don't think I've made one after that. But I applaud you in your awesomeness in trial cake-making.

You'll have to include a "before" and "after" (trial vs. real) for the cakes. I'll be on the edge of my seat :)

(congrats on feeling better)

Posted by: Molly at February 1, 2008 6:23 PM

February 1, 2008

Feeling a little better

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