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February 18, 2008

Actually happy it’s Monday

Wow, I had a rough day yesterday, very depressed, and just when I though I was getting better. Being that I’m premenstrual I decided to take the pressure off of myself and allow me to ride through the day without feeling the need to be productive in some way. We called my parents for a game of scrabble and coffee. It was perfect. I felt so much better by the end of the evening. For icing on the cake I talked to my sister just before bed. Thank goodness for family.

Today my husband, off from work, took my daughter to his mom’s so I could get some work done like a regular employed person. At first I thought that I didn’t want the house to be empty and that I would fall back into my lonely feelings from yesterday, but today it is 63 degrees and there’s sunshine which is closely mirroring how I feel inside. Things are starting to look up.

I’m still extremely sensitive but I’m working through all of this and feel myself becoming stronger. I love that it has made me reach out to people and feel more connected.

Tonight I start my swimming with my friend for our triathlon and I’m so excited, probably more for the companionship than anything else, but the exercise will help me immensely.

I weighed myself this morning and I’m 185! So let’s see how much further the swimming takes me. Soon I’ll have to start biking and running too, aaahhh! Crazy but cool.

And I’m really happy that I have this blog and have met all of you, whose blogs I check a little compulsively at times. You make me feel less lonely. That may be terribly pathetic but it’s true.

Posted by hopeful @ February 18, 2008 11:13 AM