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October 30, 2007

Kitchen remodel!

Whe-hew, we are starting the kitchen remodel this Wednesday on Halloween as if that day weren’t busy enough. I’m so excited. I’m not going to let my nerves about being without a kitchen get to me. I think I’m going to buy a bunch of healthy frozen dinners to get us through. And maybe we’ll spend a lot of time at my parents.

As if I weren’t a little stressed enough my back decided to go out on me today. It was actually my fault. I lifted something heavy, the wrong way, without even thinking. I keep replaying the moment and wish I could take it back. Not unlike the first three months I let 30 pounds of my weight explode back on.

Now I’m walking with a cane, hunched over and look a hundred years old. I’m trying to stay positive. Usually I like to wallow but now I’m beginning to think that prolongs it so I’m going to take a different approach.

I can’t feel sorry for myself because I’m getting a new kitchen and Halloween is this week and I might be meeting the host of “Don’t Sweat It”, Steve. I’m stoked.

In weight related news, I haven’t worked out for days and my weight is holding steady at 196 despite eating tons this weekend. I’m still searching and trying to look for ways to make changes that will be everlasting. Changes that aren’t too affected by the crazy things, for good or bad, that happen in my life.

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October 24, 2007

Delay on interview

I was supposed to post my interview yesterday with Wrigley nutritionist Molly Gee. I sent her my questions nearly at the last minute and she’s currently away so my new date for the interview is on November 13th. Please stay tuned.

In other news I’m doing well.

Last week I worked out on my elliptical trainer four days and this week I continued on that roll. Currently I’m in my hotel room in Connecticut and unfortunately there’s no workout room so I’ve been derailed until Saturday. I’m not worried. I’m very happy that I haven’t felt compelled to raid the snack stand while watching TV tonight. I’ve associated hotels with snacks for as long as I can remember. Per Pavlov’s dog, I should be salivating as we speak.

I didn’t weigh myself this week because I was ovulating and I realize that I get very bloated during this time. I will resume weigh-in on Monday when hopefully I’m not bloated any more. Hopefully I’m bloated now and not just fooling myself.

I re-tried on my outfits that I picked to wear into the office tomorrow. The longer I look in the mirror the fatter I begin to look. I don’t feel fat, so I don’t initially see it, but as I examine myself it becomes visible. Putting on my fashion show made me feel quite blah. That’s better than feeling totally down in the dumps so I’m not too concerned about it affecting my mood tomorrow.

So all in all it’s good. I’m not taking it to the extremes. I’m slowly plugging away.

Posted by hopeful @ 11:46 PM

October 17, 2007

Sick but motivated

Despite feeling terrible I’ve been doing pretty well. I managed to get on my elliptical trainer twice since Monday and I’m shooting for no less than four times this (and every week). I’m keeping my goals manageable so that I don’t get discouraged (I’ve probably said that a hundred times now.)

I’m not concerning myself with my eating as much because that will throw me into the obsessive zone. For the most part I eat well and balanced, just too much (of everything, not junk in particular). In fact I’m happy that I rarely feel the need to binge. For example, my husband bought a bag of potato chips and they lasted forever. I would use a small dip bowl, fill it, and be satisfied and I really wasn’t even thinking about it. Aside from the rare chip bag, we don’t have any junk food in the house.

I think once I can stay on a roll with my exercising than the eating will follow.

I’m so happy with so much right at the moment, it’s really only my weight that’s a bummer. I wish I could take the weight off a little faster because of wanting to get pregnant and because I’m going to be commuting to an office in Connecticut for a little while starting next week. But I’m not losing sleep over it like I have in the past. Now a bunch of people have seen me at this weight and it can only get better from here. If I can maintain this attitude, that is. For now, I’m feeling like I can.

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October 12, 2007

Shingles?

OK, I haven’t been feeling well for a couple of days and have a wicked skin irritation on my back. I went to the doctor today and he suspects it might be shingles. I’m skeptical. I waited an eternity for this guy to glance at me for a second and render his diagnosis. And he only “suspects” the rash is shingles.

I’m struggling with this because he prescribed me Prednisone (steroid) which, after reading the side effects, scares me. It looks pretty hardcore. Many of the side effects seem worse then the symptoms the medication is supposed to cure.

You know me well if you’re betting that “increased appetite” or “weight gain” is on the list. And yes, that may be all I had to read to discourage me from taking the meds. But how about “changes in the way fat is spread around the body”!? Yeah, I don’t know what’s worse, that or “bulging eyes”. I suppose I could conceal the side effects with a Halloween outfit and go as the hunchback of Notre Dame or because of the “increased hair growth” maybe Cousin It or Wolfman. Either way, with all the “inappropriate happiness” I would be feeling, I’d have a really good time.

Nope, it’s not happening. I’m going to wait and see if it gets any worse first. Wish me luck.

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October 5, 2007

196 and interview questions

I finally remembered to weigh myself and I’m at 196 (*phew*). I’m not sure what was going on when I saw 200 on the scale, it didn’t feel right. Last week I went to the OBGYN and she suggested I get ultrasounds because my uterus felt swollen (no, I’m not prego) but everything checked out OK. I’m guessing now that it was just a serious case of being bloated and it affected my weight too.

So I’m glad there was no real damage done from my vacation. Of course I wanted to be down lower than this because I’ve even hopped on my elliptical trainer a few times and my overall activity is slightly up.

I’m pretty happy in general because I took another health assessment assigned by my insurance company and I’m doing better than last year. Around this same time last year I had just bought my house and was in the process of getting new floors and painting it. I hadn’t even moved into yet. My stress level was through the roof and I was newly re-gaining a ton of weight at a record speed. I was seriously on the verge of a mental breakdown (had a bit of one actually) and that’s probably why my back went out on me. It was a natural defense mechanism to get me to slow down and medicate myself .

I’m glad I’m passed all that and in comparison I feel fantastic. We’re finally settled in and my husband has a great job doing what he’s always wanted to do. Yes, my life is always a bit stressed but I’ll be able to find my grove because we have finally found our routine. We are no longer in a transient state and it’s awesome.

Immediately I just want to focus on losing six pounds. Then maybe I’ll do five pound increments. I’m going to take it slow because I also want to get pregnant and crash dieting won’t be good for that.

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On to my next thing

I’ve been asked to participate in a blog tour that Wrigley’s and NBC’s The Biggest Loser have teamed up for. I’ve chosen to interview Wrigley’s nutritionist Molly Gee. She is also a leader in the American Dietetic Association. I’ll have more details to follow and the interview will be conducted and posted on the 23rd of this month but what I want advice on is what questions to ask. Please leave a comment with any question ideas. I will be allowed five or six questions all together.

Also, there may be a gift involved for you. I get to award 10 Walk and Chew Gum sets (http://gumisgood.com/walkandchewgum/) to readers. So I figure I’ll give them out to people who leave question ideas and any remaining can go to commenter’s on the day of the interview.

Thanks!

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