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June 19, 2007

Jeeze

Two weeks went by and I have no updates but I figured I’d better post to avoid the blank homepage.

I’ve been working like a mad woman for the past couple of weeks and it totally consumes me. I eat a lot in response to feeling robbed of time. The inability to moderate my life makes me feel like poo. I’ve also been over tired, etc.

I’m going to keep the complaining short because it’s really the same old same old. I was at 193 this morning and I consider that a gift.

I’m not giving up on the hope that motivation will strike me again. I’m trying to hold steady in the mean time. An analogy of climbing a rope just came to mind. I’m envisioning those ropes that hung from the gymnasium ceiling in high school. I can remember how hard it starts to feel when you’re about half way up. Then you stop and hold on thinking that you’ll recoup some strength to persist, but holding on starts getting tough. Then you concede defeat and slide to the floor.

That’s just how I feel now. I’ve had enough late night snacks (who am I kidding they were meals) to feel like I’ve let go. But my weight is still holding OK (for now anyway) like some force has tied a knot in my rope and is trying to give me a chance to gain a strong hold again.

I’m going to try.

Posted by hopeful @ June 19, 2007 12:53 AM