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May 7, 2007

I’m back safe and sound

Well, I’m safe any way, not so much sound. I’m having a hard time getting back into the swing of things. I wasn’t so much into the swing of things before I left so maybe I’m no worse off actually.

The trip was FANTASTIC! I loved the train ride so much. It’s not the most efficient way to travel but has certainly been one of my favorites. The experience was so moving to me because of all the people I met, the time to myself, and the relief from stress. The feeling is so overwhelming (in wonderful way) that I don’t have the patience to sort things out and write my thoughts and memories down, but I won’t soon forget it.

The other night I managed to carve out time to watch Thank You for Smoking. I really enjoyed it. It’s strange. One thing I took away from it is that actions, happenings, situations, or whatever may not be as important in themselves as how you perceive them. A kid said to his father who was incapacitated by depression that “it’s not complicated, you’re making it complicated.” Or something to that effect. The father recuperated and dealt with the situation at hand and everything was fine.

Anywhoo, I’ve been a little more relaxed since that movie. I definitely let my emotions make everything worse and they often get the best of me. I’m going to just try and plug through everything one step at a time.

I thought for sure I had lost weight on my trip because I felt so great, but I didn’t. I’ve been eating like poop since I got home and today I weighed 190. More than anything I want to get healthy for the state of my back and stress level. I got a letter from a company that investigates claims for my insurance company. They’re trying to figure out if I’ve been in an accident to explain all that I’m going through with my back. They want to try and collect from that person who may have caused my injury. That’s an eye opener. My 30 pound weight gain has seemingly inflicted damage equivalent to a car accident or something.

Posted by hopeful @ May 7, 2007 10:14 AM

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