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March 6, 2007

190 and doing well diet-wise

I might be getting a whole lot thinner in the near future seeing as how I might not be able to afford food. I wish that were a joke.

Since we’ve moved back to NJ I haven’t had a clear grasp on my expenses. It costs a lot more for us to live here. From the looks of it I’m not covering my monthly costs, I’ve been dipping into savings every month and I just don’t know how much longer I can keep it up.

Tonight I’m going to have to face the music and figure it out cent for cent. I’m scared. I have to rely on my husband to get a job and that terrifies me the most. He’s completely unreliable on so many levels not to mention the job front. He hasn’t had a job in years.

He’s a smart, educated, competent man who has no confidence or knowledge on how to put him into the market place. I’m afraid he’ll shoot so low for a job that will hardly help us, if at all, and get stuck there with no other possibilities.

I’m really at a loss for what to do. I’m sad and terrified.

Posted by hopeful @ March 6, 2007 1:38 PM