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February 20, 2007

Trying to hold it together

I’m having the desire to snack on something bad, something salty and crispy. I’m feeling kind of antsy. I wish that I could go out and do something, just get out and about or work on a project or something. My sedentary job really gets to me sometimes. Feeling bad about being cooped up in front of a computer often leads me to self-destructive behavior like wanting to snack on bad stuff when I’m not hungry.

I’m going to try and check in more often rather than stew in these feelings alone. Maybe it will quell the desire to act upon them.

I can’t try out for that TV show because I’m the sole working parent in this family supporting us all and I can’t take 10 weeks off of my job. It’s kind of a bummer but I actually feel more positive about my ability to get my body in shape than I do getting my house set up. So I’d rather a show come and makeover my home. My house is still mostly empty and more boxes are still packed away than are unpacked. This is not an easy way to live. And my husband is still not very helpful. We’re going to counseling to help out with his issues, so we’re working on it. But the fact remains that he doesn’t do enough to help us move forward. I’m optimistic for him though.

I’d better get back to work.

Posted by hopeful @ February 20, 2007 12:28 PM