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November 13, 2006

Starting Over

I can’t delay putting my life back on track despite having a debilitating back problem right now. I haven’t been able to move around well for three days now. Actually, today will be my fourth day and I don’t feel like I’m getting better.

A sharp pain in my lower back came very suddenly on Friday. My muscles feel throbbing and sore and there’s a sharp pain right in the low center of my back. I’m guessing that maybe it’s a muscle spasm or an old injury flaring up, either way, I can hardly move. Maybe it’s just a manifestation of stress and sadness.

Lately my life is just a series of unfortunate incidents. I’m beginning to feel that if I don’t just change my attitude regardless of these, my luck and wellbeing won’t turn around at all. So today I’m starting fresh and I’m going to act like things are OK. I’m going to take it a little easy and just plug through things that I want and need to get done. I’ll take things at an easy pace and not be too hard on myself.

I’m going to watch my eating, which I haven’t been doing for a while. I’m sure I won’t eat just the perfect amount off the bat, but I can’t allow myself to eat three slices of pizza at every meal either. So I’ll find a manageable balance somewhere in-between and start to whittle it away. Once my back feels better I’ll move around a bit more and build up my exercise level.

This is it, I’m starting over right now. I’m going to weigh myself on Friday and have weekly or bi-weekly weigh-ins. Maybe I’ll even reface this site. I really want to reface the site and hope I have time soon.

Posted by hopeful @ November 13, 2006 12:52 PM