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September 7, 2006

The longest month ever

The closing of my new house is making this feel like the longest month ever. I’m so out of sorts being in this transition. We have about a week and a half left.

I weighed in a 184 this morning. I’m monitoring my weight but not doing a whole lot about it. It’s just been yo-yoing two pounds for a while now. My “Intuitive” eating is going OK. I’m hoping to find my groove and balance, but I’m still eating a little too much overall. I realize that I’m always driven by taste to take a few more bites and those bites are adding up. I will continue to keep trying to really listen to my body and eat what I want to when I feel hungry and not much more than that.

Trying to curb my emotional eating during this chaotic time is tough too, although, it is a little easier when you relieve yourself of guilt for any indulgences. I feel a little less compelled to emotionally eat when it’s not so taboo because it lessens its effectiveness. I could almost get drunk on food when I would go through periods of depriving myself of it and then indulging in it. Knowing I wasn’t supposed to have it or feeling that I was doing something bad by eating it made me feel like such a rebel and totally satiated my self destructive desire.

I’ve been doing pretty well with the long walks but would like to get back to the gym to really relieve some stress with good workouts. I seriously struggle with stress, anxiety, and sporadic depression.

Posted by hopeful @ September 7, 2006 5:39 PM