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July 6, 2006

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I’m still pretty much the same weight after my vacation weekend where I devoured all things cheesy. All of our walking around the city of Boston must have offset my eating a little bit.

Back home today I started the morning with a protein shake and a good workout at the gym. I can easily get back into the swing of good behavior despite letting myself go for special occasions. Only, those special occasions keep popping up with too much frequency since I’ve moved home. Everything is still so new to me. I’m indulging in the great east coast pizza and bagels as though I were only on vacation here rather than having relocated for good (wheh-hew).

I’m going to try and contain myself for a few weeks because we’re going on vacation to the beach the first week in August. I weigh exactly the same as I did this time last year when we went to the shore then. I want to be at least a little bit under. Five pounds would be good enough. I’d like to see a 6 in the second digit, even if it’s followed by a 9.

I hesitate to do an official challenge or something because I don’t want to let myself down. I’m also afraid that might unleash the sabotaging demon that’s just so spiteful in the face of “dieting”.

I might have to borrow my dad’s camera and get some pictures up here. That helps me a lot because then I see myself as I really look rather than how I imagine me to be. This past weekend I was sporting the too tight clothing and going sleeveless. When I don’t look in the full length mirrors and then make up my head to be all cute, I start thinking I’m hot stuff. Then when I catch myself in a reflection of a store front and nearly pass out from the reality.

So the unofficial challenge is underway. Just goin’ about my business as normal (trying to convince myself, so as not to sabatoge.)

Posted by hopeful @ July 6, 2006 10:52 AM