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May 29, 2006

We’re home. Unreal. 167?

It’s only been four days since I’ve touched a computer but it feels like an eternity. I’m always on the computer for some reason or another. We had trouble getting connection during our trip and we drove really long days, arriving to our hotels too late anyway. It was, unexpectedly, a nice break.

We pulled up to my husband’s family around 3:30 yesterday for a total of four and a half days on the road. Not too bad considering we were traveling with a 2 year old and four cats. There were no breakdowns or casualties along the way, a complete success!

I’m not sure the enormity of it all has sunken in yet. I’m living with my parents so it probably will sink in real quick. When my husband heads back to California on Thursday I’m sure I’ll be thrown for a loop then too. I’m more excited than anything. I haven’t felt any real sadness, or more accurately, for any length of time. I suppose my excitement and maybe some anxiety is far outweighing any sadness.

I don’t really feel like I’m saying goodbye to friends because my work will bring me out to Cali a couple of times a year and I can see anyone I want to. My house was actually harder to say goodbye to, but I had been distancing myself for a while. It’s a super great house and I’ve retouched every inch of it. But I was doing it in a style that would be suitable to a wider range of people. I wasn’t really making it my own, I was making it sellable. So I’m looking forward to making a new home for myself with the intentions of it not being transient but permanent.

I’m so looking forward to living in my childhood home town. It’s really nice. A gazillion times out of my price range so I’m going to enjoy it while I can. I’m going to hook my daughter up with some fancy daycare (part time for the social aspect) and take advantage of the local YMCA which is nicer than any gym I’ve ever been a member of. And it’s in walking distance (by that, I mean around the block). I’ll be working from home again, so I’ll have the time. It’s going to be awesome.

On that note, I weighed 167 on my mom’s scale. I’m not sure it’s accurate and vaguely remember this from the last time I was home almost a year ago. But I’m sure it’s not more than 3-5 pounds off. It is one of those scales you need to calibrate each time with the dial on the back. I’m going to get a new digital scale over the next couple of days. I’ll treat myself to one with a fat and hydration meter on it too.

While I may be eating chips as I write this, I’m geared up to start fresh tomorrow. The damages weren’t nearly as bad as I thought so I’m happy. I’m just plain old happy right now. When reality sets in and I don’t feel like I’m on vacation anymore, I’m not sure how I’ll feel. I’ll cross that bridge when I get to it.

Posted by hopeful @ May 29, 2006 8:42 PM

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