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May 5, 2006

Tracking Shmacking

I can’t tell you how many times I visit the NutriSystem website and get dangerously close to ordering a month’s worth of food. I feel powerless to get over this hump and I want some assistance. I want a personal chef or someone to hold my hand. Actually I would like them to hook their arms under my pits and move my hands around as though I was a puppet. I would just hang there limp as they do the work. I’m exhausted.

I never stop trying though. I don’t have to regain all my weight to realize I’m on a slippery slope here. I’m swimming up stream right now not making any progress, mostly just staying in the same position. Some times I slide back a bit but I never stop trying to swim forward, hence exhaustion. It will always be the same story. Right now my overweight body is offering a lot of resistance against the water. I’m hoping I’ll become stronger and leaner. Then the water will stream past me with less resistance. It will feel more like I’m treading rather than swimming a triathlon. Enough of that analogy, you get the point.

So I have signed up for yet another program to try and track my progress, etc. This one is through my insurance company. They offer incentives when you try and do anything to maintain your health. It will save them money in the long run. Of course, though, they are online questionnaires and action plans that don’t cost the company any overhead. They wouldn’t spend the money on the really effective gym memberships. Damn them. I’ll give my company some credit for having an onsite gym.

Anyway, we’ll see how this goes. The program is cool in that they have a lot of required reading that is pretty informative. I should have a PhD. in weight loss & nutrition by now. I have a menu and fitness plan. You can track stress and read about how to battle any obstacles. It’s a no fail plan if I follow it. The onus is on me though. That’s were the problem lies right now. I’m the weak link.

We’ll give this a go. Right before the weekend? I must be crazy.

Posted by hopeful @ May 5, 2006 10:58 AM