Hopeful Loser

I can’t tell you how many times I visit the NutriSystem website and get dangerously close to ordering a month’s worth of food. I feel powerless to get over this hump and I want some assistance. I want a personal chef or someone to hold my hand. Actually I would like them to hook their arms under my pits and move my hands around as though I was a puppet. I would just hang there limp as they do the work. I’m exhausted.

I never stop trying though. I don’t have to regain all my weight to realize I’m on a slippery slope here. I’m swimming up stream right now not making any progress, mostly just staying in the same position. Some times I slide back a bit but I never stop trying to swim forward, hence exhaustion. It will always be the same story. Right now my overweight body is offering a lot of resistance against the water. I’m hoping I’ll become stronger and leaner. Then the water will stream past me with less resistance. It will feel more like I’m treading rather than swimming a triathlon. Enough of that analogy, you get the point.

So I have signed up for yet another program to try and track my progress, etc. This one is through my insurance company. They offer incentives when you try and do anything to maintain your health. It will save them money in the long run. Of course, though, they are online questionnaires and action plans that don’t cost the company any overhead. They wouldn’t spend the money on the really effective gym memberships. Damn them. I’ll give my company some credit for having an onsite gym.

Anyway, we’ll see how this goes. The program is cool in that they have a lot of required reading that is pretty informative. I should have a PhD. in weight loss & nutrition by now. I have a menu and fitness plan. You can track stress and read about how to battle any obstacles. It’s a no fail plan if I follow it. The onus is on me though. That’s were the problem lies right now. I’m the weak link.

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i've always liked the idea of cleaning out the fridge and having all the meals prepared for me, nutri-system style. it all seems very in control and do-able. but then i realize that it could never work if you have other people in the household, because of course they would want to have real food in the house. like crackers and ice cream and cookes and chips. ah well, it's a nice thought.

Posted by: bell at May 5, 2006 11:13 AM

I need someone to follow me around and tell me what I should or shouldn’t do. I’ve tried to enlist my boyfriend but I feel I can swear at him. Best of luck.

Posted by: Robin at May 5, 2006 11:31 AM

I have a friend doing the nutrisystems she liked it a lot but I've noticed she is getting bored with it. I have been lunching on lean cuisine spa meals (the penne pasta chicken with basil is really good) most of around 300 calories and I'm really thinking about making those for lunch and supper and wing breakfast. I have other eaters in my house so we will see. If you have tried that already sorry I only read the 1st couple of entries.

Posted by: Jayvee at May 5, 2006 11:53 AM

Losing weight is rough. But I think you are doing great and I look up to you for all the success you had. I am hoping you can get back on track soon. I know this does not help but I feel like I am the boat as you are right now. Take care.

Posted by: Howard at May 5, 2006 6:37 PM

IF Y0U JUST REMEMBER TO USE A SMALLER PLATE TO EAT OFF, I GUARENTTE YOU YOU WILL LOOSE WEITHT

Posted by: Ann at May 6, 2006 6:11 PM

on the other hand, my boyfriend can't float because he's TOO lean. Seems like a pretty cool insurance plan! Good luck

Posted by: janet at May 7, 2006 11:22 AM

Hi HL,

What's going on here? it seems that a lot of people are not doing too well this week. Is it something in the air?

I too look at different weight loss sites and programs so boy do I know what you mean.

What's important is that you keep on trying.

I hope this new program will help you, hon.

Posted by: Fat Bitch at May 7, 2006 2:01 PM

I'm totally with you on this one. Eating is the hardest part for me. I keep thinking I wish I could take a week off of life and have someone whip me into shape. Too bad there's no way I can come up with the money to go to any week retreat that would do such a thing! But, I try to tell myself that people do these things all the time... we can do it too,one day at a time.

Posted by: Nicole at May 8, 2006 7:43 AM

Anon, here is something that is just as easy and a heck of a lot cheaper than going the nutri system route.....you go and get lean cuisine meals or another low calorie type frozen meals and you eat a sensible breakfast, a snack of around 100 calories between the meal and then have a frozen meal for lunch and dinner and allow yourself 2 other snacks that are around 100 calories each.....and by the time it's all said and done you have around 1400 calories for the day....no expensive plan, but a plan you can very easily follow.....

Posted by: donna at May 8, 2006 8:22 AM

I am a personal chef, dietician and cater for special dietary requirements, as well. I promise you that one month with me looking after your dietary needs that you will look and feel like a new person.

For any advice and/or tips, you can constact me at vino-tech@telkomsa.net

Cheers

Janine

Posted by: Janizaf at May 12, 2006 7:30 AM

May 5, 2006

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