Hopeful Loser

Here is a picture of me in my bathing suit. Buying this nightmare was a bit traumatizing. I recently got rid of my old bathing suit, that had I ever wore to my dentist’s office I would have disappeared under the camouflage of the wallpaper. I had to get a suit for our mini-vacation last weekend.

I’ve been enjoying my body lately despite being stuck on an eternal plateau and having a ways to go to get to my goal. I was nervous to have to deal with looking for a bathing suite for fear it would totally throw off my perception. And that’s what happened. The denial that blurred my vision abated and the rolls became increasingly loud and clear.

I new I had to go one piece and black was the safest color. Without some cosmetic surgery I probably shouldn’t attract too much attention to my body at any weight. I saw these bathing suits that claimed to be body shapers, and thinking that would be great I chose my size and tried it on.

I gasped, not only because it looked terrible but because I couldn’t breathe. It practically sucked the weight from below my chin and pushed it out the leg holes, making my thighs look like they were going to explode. I wear a size 12 but had to go with a 16. Unfortunately this made the boobs and the butt too loose. I went with it because I couldn’t stand the thought of trying on another one.

The suit is slightly less unflattering outside of the dressing room. Anywhoo, here it is. Now roll your mouse over it and see a slightly improved me. I was inspired by this post. It’s still a work in progress, photo re-touching is pretty hard and too time consuming (when I’m not getting paid). I didn’t do a great job but maybe it will help me envision my goal. In the past I’ve actually super imposed my head on a model’s body. That was fun and maybe I’ll try that again too.

I know I have to stop eating like I’ve been eating each weekend to achieve this goal in real life, but for now it’s fun to dream.

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i thought the before was the after! you look so svelte and shapely. i'd probably proudly strut down to the supermarket in that suit if i looked like that :)

Posted by: dg at April 3, 2006 3:33 AM

You look awesome! I also thought the before picture was the after. Keep it up

Posted by: Anne at April 3, 2006 4:44 AM

That is so cool! (p.s. hubba, hubba.)

Posted by: Jennifer at April 3, 2006 7:07 AM

Don't be too hard on yourself - you look great! Fabulous curves!

Posted by: Jessi at April 3, 2006 11:26 AM

WOMAN! You look AMAZING!!!!!!
I WISH I had that teeny waist!!
You look fantastic.

Posted by: Becky at April 3, 2006 12:45 PM

WOW! You can really see a difference in your arms and in your legs, especially your thighs you can see they don't touch each other anymore! Way to go. Keep it up.

Posted by: sandra at April 3, 2006 2:24 PM

Wow, That looks great! Wish I was that close to goal! You go girl!

Posted by: jus me... at April 4, 2006 3:46 PM

You look fantastic! I really thought the title refered to the before picture. Seriously, you look phenomenal.

Posted by: Mia at April 4, 2006 6:11 PM

My dear, I cannot WAIT until I can look as great as you do now in a swimsuit! Thank you for 2 things:

1) You've inspired me to try on my swimsuit which I haven't tried on in 3 years or more

2) For liking my blog enough to decide to add it to your Favorites.

I'm now adding yours to MY list of links and I want to wish you the best of luck as you continue closer to your goal weight. :)

Posted by: Fat Bitch at April 4, 2006 9:35 PM

Bathing suit shopping is always traumatizing, but wow, you look great in the new suit! Such fantastic curves, and I envy your waist. :)

Posted by: nsfg at April 5, 2006 1:27 PM

You look AMAZING!!!!! I cannot wait for all of us to go to the beach this summer! I'm seriously counting the days. I LOVE YOU!!!!!!

Posted by: Rebecca at April 6, 2006 5:59 PM

I can only dream to look that good when I put mine on!!

Posted by: Karen at April 9, 2006 2:47 PM

I just came upon your site and am very inspired! I am a few inches taller than you but have a similar body type and watching your change has given me hope that as I get closer to my goal (halfway now) I will look at least a little like you do now! Congrats!

Posted by: Alex at April 22, 2006 2:47 AM

April 3, 2006

Virtual Me

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