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January 19, 2006

Vacation nearly over

This break has been so great and I feel so good. Despite packing on some pounds, which I know I have, I’ve enjoyed every minute. I’ll take a confirmation weigh-in on Monday when regular life resumes.

Since we’ve been back from the beach my father and I have made a serious dent in my kitchen renovation. By Friday it will be 97 percent done at least. I haven’t been as aerobically active this week but the projects I’ve been working on have been rigorous on muscles that I don’t use so often. I ache in the weirdest places so it hasn’t been a total loss.

I’m so nervous for the next steps in preparing to sell my house and move home, it ties my stomach in knots. As I’ve said a hundred million times, I hope it doesn’t have a negative impact on my weight loss. I feel very confident that it won’t.

One thing that this blog has helped me realize is that my life is never without some turbulence. I’ve been doing really well losing weight and at minimum maintaining throughout this past year. It’s hard to believe that in a little less than a month I will have been online for a year. I can’t imagine things being more trying than they have been during that time so this was essentially an exercise for life.

In my previous attempts at weight loss I would just exercise a lot and drastically cut back the calories for a quick result. It was no wonder why I would continue to regain the weight as I fell back into old habits of eating a lot and no exercise. This time I’ve worked more changing who I am. I have now convinced myself that I am a person who enjoys being active and fit and healthy eating has to be a part of that.

The active part is a lot easier for me and I love it. The healthy eating, not so much. Actually, I like eating healthy (and mostly do) because it does make me feel better. Curbing portion size is the tough part. But I accept that this is how it will be forever. I won’t ignore it and allow myself to go back to eating tons while masking it in denial.

I’m not going to continue to bore you with that mantra. I just needed to remind myself that things are going to get back on track with my eating by weeks end. I’m on a mission to lose nearly 40 more pounds because I want to look awesome when I get back to Jersey!

Posted by hopeful @ January 19, 2006 11:42 AM