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January 31, 2006

Hunka hunka

As you may have gathered, my moods change with the wind. I’ve tried a million different methods to prevent that from happening but have had more success learning how to cope with it. On days that I don’t feel quite as good I suspend decision making, avoid certain people and situations, etc. Recently I’m realizing how much exercising has helped me as well.

For example, today I’m not having a bad day, per say, but I’m definitely feeling sensitive. I’m vulnerable to feeling bad in the blink of an eye depending on what goes on around me. I wish I wasn’t at the mercy of external circumstance and really try hard not to be. Anywhoo, feeling empowered by my healthy eating I decided to go to the gym as many co-workers were headed out to lunch at a gross fast food place I won’t even mention. I go to the gym during lunch most days, lately, so that wasn’t so different. Today, though, I made a point of choosing to take the time out for myself. I was very conscious of the time alone to rejuvenate and rest my mind. It felt particularly nice. It was my time and nobody could affect it or, not that anyone tried, take it away from me.

After a good hard workout I felt really great which I’m sure will last me for the rest of the day. I noticed this same effect the other day when I was strung out with anxiety.

General anxiety is another thing I tend to suffer from. At any given moment I couldn’t even tell you what I’m anxious about, I just feel it as a physical stress. It’s weird, but working out has helped it a lot.

Enough about the nuttiness that is me. For now. Working out is good stuff and it has nothing to do with the hunka hunka eye candy that was at the gym during the last half of my session. He was seriously HAUT and promised to one day show me how to use the torture machine looking device that masks as a universal gym! Could you imagine?! Everything went a little fuzzy and I could hear music playing in my head. It went a little something like this … wonka wonka bbwow wow. Cue the strobe lights. At this point I must apply my censor, but you get the picture. ;-)

Posted by hopeful @ January 31, 2006 3:09 PM