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October 24, 2005

You win some you lose some

This week I’ve gained 2 pounds and am back up to 165. I’ll live though. I had such an emotionally stressful week.

My Kitchen is going to be such hard work and definitely going to take longer than I thought. Every inch of my body aches from holding a heavy paint gun in one hand and a 2 gallon bucket of paint in the other. The damn tube for the paint gun wasn’t long enough to leave the damn bucket on the floor! (Imagine that I’m saying the ‘F’ word instead of ‘damn’). I had a full body jump suit and stocking cap thing for my head to protect me from the paint. I looked like I was about to rob a bank or battle some seriously infectious disease.

The paint gun makes such a mess. I had pretty much hermetically sealed my kitchen so there was no ventilation and was painting in such a major cloud of paint spray I could barely see. I had to take my goggles off because they were instantly painted over. Everything seemed to be OK. After the craziness was over and I took off my cap thing I had a perfect white circle where my skin was exposed. Even my eyelashes were coated (and some nose hairs!)

It was a crazy day, but my kitchen is primed. It feels like a weight has been lifted off of my shoulders having that initial coat done. I think I was intimidated by the paint gun and now I’ve conquered it. Well, let’s at least call it a draw because it did kick my ass. I still have more to do, but I’m one step closer. I feel like I will have a better week regarding my diet and am able to get back on track. Being out of control in certain aspects of my life manages to leak into all the rest. My weight always feels the brunt of that. Not this time, though. I will work it out.

My kitchen renovation along with starting my new job this week (I go into the office on Wednesday) will probably delay me putting my house up for sale until December. That depressed me because I’m so eager to get back to NJ.

I’m overwhelmed with all that I have to do. I’m tired and just want a break. It never seems like I can get one. I know that many of my deadlines are self imposed but if I don’t stick to them things never seem to get done. Now I’ve gone and scheduled getting a floor installed in my kitchen so I really have to get the painting done.

I don’t see where I’m going to find time to workout in all this either. That’s making me a little nervous. I haven’t worked full time in almost two years and I haven’t gone into an office for even longer. Working 40 hours and a commute of an additional 10 to 15 hrs for the week doesn’t leave a ton of surrounding time for working out.

UUhhhhh, letting out a big sigh of exhaustion and residual paint.

Posted by hopeful @ October 24, 2005 10:30 AM