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September 12, 2005

I’m back from Joisey

I was only gone for a couple of days but I feel like I was gone for a while. I think the contrast between NJ and California exacerbate that, along with staying away from the computer. I had a great time and it pumps me up to move home.

Tomorrow I’ll weigh myself to assess the damages. No single huge meal stands out. I feel like I ate continuously all weekend, picking here or there. And all of my choices where of the non-healthy kind.

I’ve been trying to work on how I deal with eating when I’m out of my typical routine. Most things don’t throw me for too much of a loop any more but vacations kind of do. I find myself thinking about each place I’m going to eat and what good stuff is going to be offered. Like the chips and dip at my grandma’s. No chips n’ dip taste better. It’s crazy that so many of my fondest memories are infused with food.

From the moment I start thinking about the food that’s going to be somewhere the progressively bigger the challenge gets to stay away from it. If I manage to restrain myself for any amount of time, it haunts me and eats away at me until I cave. Even if I miraculously don’t succumb to the temptation, what fun is constantly being preoccupied?

Will I never be normal?

Posted by hopeful @ September 12, 2005 10:49 PM

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