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August 31, 2005

Random weird thought

Instant real time update: as I was writing this it occurred to me that this isn’t a random thought at all. Most of my thoughts pertain to weight loss and this could be described more as a moment of clarity and enlightenment. Who cares, let’s get to it. (I swear I have mental and verbal diarrhea and can barely stick to a single train of thought. There I go again.)

Last night I was watching the late night repeats of “Will and Grace”. Grace was so skinny back then. Actually I don’t really know what she looks like now, maybe she lost the weight gain from having her baby, I don’t know. My point is that I was amazed by how skinny she looked, that’s all I could focus on. I was constantly inspecting every curve of her body. Lack of curve, I should say. Protruding points would be more accurate.

I usually love this look, to the dismay of my sister. I’ve been silently (because I know most people wouldn’t be too happy about it) enjoying the figures of Nichole Richie, Linsay Lohan, Paris Hilton (minus her nasty lack of butt), etc. Speaking of that nasty lack of butt, she (or anybody) shouldn’t wear clothes to accentuate that fact. Her side view looks like when a cartoon character falls off a building, splats flat, and gets up and walks away remaining flat. Walking away like a slightly curled piece of paper.

Oops, back to my point. As I was watching Grace all I could think about was how cranky I would be if I were her or, I should say, that thin. I know she or most of those other girls (minus Paris) aren’t naturally that thin. They really look under weight. Wow, I can’t believe I just admit that and more surprisingly, for the first time, believe it.

Doing what it would take to sustain that under weightness would make me one very cranky b!tch. I think for the first time, I really don’t aspire to be that.

Posted by hopeful @ August 31, 2005 11:24 AM

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