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August 29, 2005

173

Let me clarify that. It was 173.8. I always just go by the first three numbers but I do feel bad if the tenth place is above a five. I don’t know what the tenth place number was last week, but if it was below the five than I didn’t even really lose a whole pound. I’ve been moving at a snails pace this month!

I’ve been at this weight loss thing now for just over five months and at first I felt like the time was flying by. Today I feel like it’s taking forever. The recent unbudging scale is partly responsible.

I started taking for granted my 2 pounds per week weight loss. My routine to lose those pounds each week became ingrained. It stopped requiring much thought or effort. I think that’s were I fail to maintain my weight loss each time I have success. I can’t not think about it, otherwise, I’ll conveniently forget just how many times I didn’t workout or how many times I actually went out for dinner. Before you know it weight creeps back on, at which point I usually avoid the scale in denial until it will take a huge monumental effort to lose the weight once again.

That’s why I do weigh each week. Depending on what those numbers reveal, it reminds me to pay attention. And usually, you can’t get so far off track in one week that you can’t repair the damage. If it’s good news, well then, you’re just stoked. I have to keep this in check, now and forever.

Here’s the part of the marathon where I feel like I’m about to pass out and come to a stop (hopefully brief), bend down a bit, and have to place my hands on my knees to brace myself while I pant (with that pained expression), look up and figure out how much further I have to go. The road I’m envisioning looks like those cross country highways, in the Midwest farmlands, almost perfectly flat and straight. Nothing is between me and the horizon but this damn road. No indication of when it’s going to end.

I’m being dramatic, I’ve never run a marathon in my life (only metaphorical ones), but that’s how I feel right now.

Posted by hopeful @ August 29, 2005 9:05 PM