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July 1, 2005

Purging

I love when the local charity organizations leave big bags on our doorstep for us to fill so they can conveniently relieve us from our clutter. They must read my mind and know exactly when I need to do a “clean sweep”. As per-oozual , their timing was spot-on and this morning I left an elephant sized bag of clothes and memories on my doorstep for them to re-cycle.

Sometimes it’s really difficult to let go of certain items. For good or bad most of them conjure up memories. My husband was really surprised when I was able to point out why, where, or when I bought each article of clothing. He laid on our bed while I sifted through my closet and drawers reminding him of the significance of each and every piece. My first real job interview since when we started dating, one of our early trips to Boston to visit my brother, and the gradual progression of my weight gain. Those size 14 jeans looked so huge to me back then. At the rate I’m losing weight now, I might fit into them in a month or so.

I purged about half of what I own. I got rid of anything too big for me and anything unrealistically small. The ‘too small’ items where mostly from the 80s anyway. I’m keeping a range from a (hopeful) size 10 to my current size, 15/16. I will have a wicked and expansive wardrobe when I hit a size 12. Back in the day when I started gaining weight, I must have breezed through size 12 because I have a bunch of items that still have the tags on them. I surpassed that number so fast I never had a chance to wear them.

I cracked up at some of my “motivational” purchases. Tube tops, baby Tees, and a bunch of sheer things. Maybe I thought I’d be a slut if I were thin. That would explain the baby tee that says “Porn Star” (just kidding, the union never supplied us with anything like that… just kidding again).

I feel so refreshed today, having sent those clothes off to be enjoyed by someone else. I’m looking forward to re-assigning memories to the clothes that I kept and filling up the now empty shelves and drawers with a new character, the new me. I feel like a load has been lifted (pun intended).

Posted by hopeful @ July 1, 2005 12:51 PM