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June 8, 2005

The Almighty Waistline

The BigFatBlog is a great site. While I am working to lose weight, I think that it is important to be happy in your skin. This site does a great job at putting things into perspective and making you feel like you’re a normal frikin’ person at any weight. WE ARE and we deserve to be treated as such.

If we could really get to the point of believing that, then maybe we wouldn’t be so bummed out when we have weeks where we don’t lose as much weight. It is also important to note that what we are doing is crazy difficult and we shouldn’t be so hard on ourselves. Do we beat ourselves up this much when we have a bad week at work, or spend a little too much money on the last trip to the mall? No, we get over it because ups and downs are all a part of life. (I know, you’re saying "but those previously mentioned don’t affect the waistline, unless that excess money dropped at the mall was spent in the food court".) The almighty waistline, damn it, why do we covet thee?

I’ve been feeling great about myself lately. In general that is, I still have bumps in the road like last week where I was a little down and out.

Some of the great changes so far, due to some weight loss and exercising (for sure has made me stronger):

1. I can sleep on my back without nearly suffocating.
2. I can once again tie my shoes without blacking out.
3. I don’t wake up with back pain.
4. I have energy to play with my daughter (I had none before)
5. Extreme truth: I no longer squeeze out a little pee when I sneeze or cough or even laugh (no, it has nothing to do with giving birth, I had a C-section)

(wow, I can’t believe I fessed up to that last one. I hope to goodness that was caused by my weight. How embarrassing would that be if it was totally irrelevant? Then it would just be a fun tid-bit for you guys to ponder.)

A goal I haven’t achieved yet is being able to run. I am still too heavy for my small frame to receive my weight crashing down on impact. The thought of having both feet off the ground simultaneously terrifies my knees. Last night I was going to graduate from the Firm "Not – So – Tough Aerobics" to the "Tough Aerobic Mix". To my disappointment I couldn’t handle all the jumping around. It felt like I was being dropped 10 stories onto a concrete slab. I thought my skeleton was going to shatter. Oh, well, I’ll stick to the "Not-so-Tough" and just use heavier weights and to raise the intensity, I’ll flail my arms around like the crazy person that I am.

Posted by hopeful @ June 8, 2005 4:23 PM