Hahaha, I had to laugh when you mentioned your boss "seeing" you...a lady I work with always tells me that I am exactly like her daughter, ok, that's cool....one day I saw her and I was kinda shocked, she was not attractive at all...and I couldn't help wondering, is that how she sees me? When I was a kid I also pondered the same thing about colors..I thought that because my sister has blue eyes she sees more blue and because I have green eyes, I see more green. What a warped philosophy..imagine if kids were in politics!!

I seriously thought that I was the only one who thought of that eye color philosophy. I have blue eyes and always wondered if I saw things through a blue tint and other people saw things through their own "color tint". I guess we all sort of do go through the same process of figuring stuff out, eh?

I'm feeling much better today....although I still am having cravings like CRAZY. My sister watched my kids this morning so I could go and work out, and while there I ran into another girl from my neighborhood whose husband is also gone for a week (we found this out while chatting). She told me that I looked awesome and that she could totally tell that I had lost weight. This is the first person who has made such a dramatic statement. I've had other friends who have said, "yeah, I see it in your face," etc, but nothing like this other girl. It made me feel good....it also made me want to keep going.

I'm dying for my husband to come home now so I can get up early and work out my normal time....but I'm really desperately trying to hang in there until he comes home.

So about seeing people that you think resemble you.....I am always asking my husband when we go somewhere....."so, am I as big as her?" Isn't that horrible? Why can't we just be happy with who we are.....in all stages. I wrote about this before saying that we all look backwards and think of how good we looked then, even though we were complaining about it at the time. We really should just be happy where we are....especially if we are progressing....and not worry about those around us. I swear it is the curse of a woman to compare themselves.....And I KNOW that is not the purpose of us being on this earth. We need to work on ourselves and make ourselves feel happy in the skin that we are in! (how ever much skin that is :)

Oh by the way Hopeful....I gained .5 of a pound last week. Put that one in the chart. I'm not happy about it, but it's reality and I'm facing it head on.

Have a good evening everybody!

Molly

I think it's crazy when people tell you that you look like someone unattractive, fat or whatever. A few weeks ago, someone came running over to me and said "are you Ricki Lake's sister?!" I just laughed and said no, but I wanted to think of someone ugly and say "are you (ugly person's) sister?"

MOLLY!! I ALWAYS ask my husband exactly that! It's like I can't tell what I look like and I want to know how he sees me. We are crazy that way. I wish I could, and maybe I will, get to the point when it doesn't matter, I'm always too concerned about how others see me and what they think. I'll put the weight gain in the chart, you'll take that right back off in an instant.

talk to y'all later :-)

Hey Adrianne - Your co-worker might be comparing your personality, or interests, or whatever, with her daughter. Maybe she's not talking physical traits at all. I know that I jump to conclusions all the time and 9 times out of 10, I'm mistaken. Maybe that's the case here.

As far as How Do I Look, the only time I truly see my weight is when I look at snapshots of myself. I'll be thinking I look quite attractive and normal size but then I'll see a picture of myself at whatever event I was at and face the reality of the size I've gotten to. And I frequently ask if something looks ok on me (I don't even venture 'good' because I guess I don't believe that I ever look good at my current weight) I've gotten better at wearing clothes I like rather than clothes that don't emphasize my weight. I've got this one linen dress, it's huge, but I love wearing it. It feels so good when I move and the dress wafts around. I've sat my sister down and run thru my wardrobe, asking which things I should never wear again (because of how huge they make me look). That dress is mentioned but I love it so much, I wear it anyway. Another thing I've done is ask friends if i'm as big as some other person at the same restaurant, say. Imagine my horror when one friend said, no, she's much narrower, or her arms are smaller, or whatever. Yikes, what a wake-up.

Uh, ladies, I don't get the eye color thing. Never been there.

Friday is weigh day - omigod!

C-ya!

argh! I swear I hit send, but something happened to my comments. here I go again...

Hopeful, your boss is funny! did he hesitate at all when he wrote back to you?

I weighed in on friday, and no surprise, I gained again. I'm noticing a pattern, 3 weeks of gain, followed by 1 week of loss. yikes!

So I plan to workout 5 time by friday (1 down, 4 to go), and I planned my lunches and dinners out, so that I know what to eat, and don't just stand in front of the fridge, looking for brownies...

MSN lets you make a blog, so I did, and I invite you all to check it out. But I'm not as funny as hopeful!
here's the link
http://spaces.msn.com/members/martha963/

have a lovely day!
Martha

Hey guys,

Martha......love ur space and ur blog it reminded me that sometimes it's fun to have a face to the name so I'll share mine,

http://spaces.msn.com/members/adrianekathleen/

notice that the majority of my pics are from a couple years ago before I gained a bunch

hmm...I will have to take some time to post a "thin, now fat" photo album...I tried to look at your blog, but you have restricted access, which is probably a good thing...my hotmail addy is martha963@hotmail.com, there must be a way for you to put in with permission to view, right?

okay, i fixed it

Girls, that's wicked cool! I went and peaked at your blogs. I have to get back to work, but later i'll go take a closer look. I've been meaning to check out Spaces. It is cool to see your pictures. I might soon post mine on this site. But i'll still keep the dot over my half naked pictures. Somehow i think that if people don't see my head, they won't really picture me that way. I know i'm nuts.

talk to you guys later, i'm slammed at work.