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May 2, 2005

200

Sooo close! I weighed myself this morning and I weighed 200 lbs. That’s four pounds since last Saturday. I made up the two pounds I gained while my parents were here and took two more off. I’m happy with that. I’m excited for when that number will start with a 1, though! I’m confident that will happen next week. I might even weigh myself on Thursday, the day of my meeting, just for fun.

This past Saturday we had a friend over, the one who I keep indulging in cheesy Mexican food with. This time we went out for Italian, not real Italian but a national chain Italian. So the food was overly greasy and extremely cheesy. Unfortunately I went to the restaurant a little hungry, which was risky to begin with. I kept thinking of Molly and how this would be my “cheat” meal so it would be OK because I had done great for the whole week prior. That thought helped to relieve some pressure and fear going into it.

Of course as per usual, my husband orders practically one of every appetizer and extra bread right off the bat. That is one of our downfalls, we like variety on the table and think we’ll take it home with us but, in actuality, we end up eating most of it. One time (in the past) a waiter came to the table, laughing, saying that the cooks thought we had four people at our table and he had a hard time convincing them that there was just the two of us and they were all laughing about it. I couldn’t believe he told us that, that’s a true story.

I’m anti ordering one of everything, now, and don’t partake in it, but my husband thought he’d take advantage of having our friend with us. Anywhoo, as the appetizers starting pouring in and the “bottomless” salad bowls were overflowing, I surprisingly had no fear. Rather than eating directly out of the salad bowl or right off the appetizer dish, I placed a small amount of salad on my appetizer plate along with one stuffed mushroom and one piece of bruschetta and that was all I ate of that! I had ordered a meal that had no cheese and ate hardly any of it. Truth be told, it didn’t taste that great, but that never stopped me before so I would like to take full credit for just restraining myself and listening to my body telling me I wasn’t hungry anymore, thank you very much.

I really enjoyed the meal because I tasted a little bit of everything, enjoyed the variety and had no problem putting on the breaks. I have no regrets of missing the opportunity to pig out or not trying more of the other stuff. It didn’t even seem like I had to be too conscious of it, it felt more natural. That is my goal, feeling comfortable and content with this lifestyle not deprived.

Posted by hopeful @ May 2, 2005 10:05 AM