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April 2, 2005

Not So Bad

I woke up a bit nervous today. I didn’t do great last weekend when my sister was visiting and the whole week went by and I didn’t work out! (It was like a blip in time, I hardly realized it happened.) Then last night a friend came over and we went out for Mexican food. I don’t typically eat cheese (because I’m trying to go back to my vegan ways) but as soon as they mentioned Mexican it was all I could think about. In the end I didn’t do too badly, like the old me might have. I resisted the nachos and only had one taste of the shared desert. It was like a regular dinner, even though I should have cut back more.

This morning I thought, “What am I doing?” Writing about weight loss on a website isn’t going to cut it. It’s like how I think the workout videos are somehow going to help me by sitting on my bookshelves. I avoided the scale on Monday because I was afraid of the damage I incurred over the weekend and unfortunately I didn’t work harder this week to make up for it. So I decided I had to face the music and brave the scale today. So I did.

I lost 3 pounds!! I’m down to 204! So In three weeks I’ve lost 5 pounds total. I could have done better but for all that went on it could have been worse. It wasn’t a struggle; I’ve felt more normal over the past three weeks than ever. Everything was done in moderation. This is something I could stick to. I’ve said it before, I do want to kick it up a notch, but this easing in approach has been good for me. It feels a lot less roller coastery and that’s something I need to watch out for. I tend to do all or nothing and go off the handle when I screw up by eating everything in sight. So far my screw ups haven’t been monumental (they were more like what a normal person would eat as opposed to a dieter) and I haven’t let them discourage me too much.

As long as I continue to be a loser (even in little increments) I will remain hopeful :-)

Posted by hopeful @ April 2, 2005 11:26 PM