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April 24, 2005

I’m back and happy to see you guys!

Hey all, I’m back from vacation and my parents have left. Now I have to get back to my regular life! I’m so looking forward to regular exercise and eating well again. My parents don’t super great (I don’t know how they’re not heavier) My mom is a little round and at 5’3” and (maybe)150 lbs, could stand to lose a few, but I’d kill to be that right now and my father is thin.

I didn’t eat great over my vacation, but the upside is that I am beginning to feel more normal in how I eat. Eating at restaurants every meal was certainly challenging and my meals were definitely larger than they should be and, as to be expected, higher in fat. I didn’t stress about the “diet” which felt nice. This allowed me not to feel like I wanted to go nuts and self indulge too much. I ate what I felt like and in most cases if not all, didn’t finish my meals. I used to feel (every time I was eating out) that I needed to eat everything and then some, as though it might be the last time that I allowed myself to do so. I also, surprisingly, didn’t feel compelled to get chips or a snack every time we stopped at a rest area or to refuel. One time I actually did get a bag of Cheetos (the snack size) and only ate half of it! I wasn’t even thinking about it and didn’t even realize it until I got to the hotel room that night (where I excitedly devoured the other half)!

We went to Yosemite national park and it was beautiful!! I felt rejuvenated and wonderful. I was so eager to walk all over the place and had no problem walking 5 miles of hilly trails, much of the time carrying my 22 pounder (my mini me). Unfortunately we only had one day of that kind of exercise, two and a half days was solid driving and half a day was visiting relatives, but the whole trip was great.

I weighed myself this morning and I appear to have gained 2 lbs (204), bummer. It’s that time of month for me so that contributes too (me being optimistic). Below are the pictures as promised. I need to make better note of my weight from my last pictures but I know that I weighed a little more. I think I see a difference in my stomach, although I am standing a little straighter.

I have to kick it into high gear because I am having a dinner with my co-workers in two weeks. I’m meeting a few new members of our team which, by the way, are all men. I want to make a somewhat better impression than I would if I met them today. So I want to work harder than I have been (since I’ve been taking it slow). I have to be careful because sometimes the quicker I lose weight the more obsessed I become. I run the risk of binging (and gaining the weight back, and then some, twice as quick) or just becoming plane old mental and seriously irritable.

We’ll see. Anyhow, I’m so excited to read the comments and get back into the swing of things! I really feel great and positive regardless of the weight gain which is also representative of the new me.

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Posted by hopeful @ April 24, 2005 7:23 PM