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March 13, 2005

Fat Acceptance

There is a community of people out there just like me, actually, they’re better than me and only like me in a physical sense (fat). They are promoting and more importantly celebrating fat acceptance. I agree with their criticisms of our discriminating society and am in awe of anyone who can truly love themselves regardless of what is valued by our culture and more admirably for what is not. I, however, can’t accept myself fat!

First of all, when I go for walks or even just stand for any extended period of time, my legs ache and they will ache all night, it drives me crazy, so much so, I can’t sleep. I can’t sleep on my back because I can’t breathe as well. Miraculously I don’t snore, except when I rarely turn on my back. I hate and am embarrassed by the smallest amount of activity resulting in huffing and puffing. I cringe at the thought of me walking a talking with someone as I progressively get more and more out of breath.

I’m not even talking about serious health repercussions (that I don’t know I don’t have or won’t get). It’s a bit of a controversy whether or not you can be fat and healthy but I don’t even care about that. I’m talking about my daily comfort. My little frame can’t handle this weight. I challenge anyone to go to the store and by a huge, make that 90 pound, bag of potatoes, strap it on your back, and carry it around with you.

Posted by hopeful @ March 13, 2005 7:40 PM