October 28, 2011

This made my day

Over the past couple of weeks I've had a few days here or there that have been a little rough for a various number of reasons.

Today my husband emailed me this ... poem?...

It made me feel worlds better. He might not like me sharing but I had to.

*******
Good morning sweetiepies!

The fact that you are
exhausted, tired, broken,

carpal-tunneled, weekend-overloaded,
"Psyche"-deprived, iPad-violated, iPhone-cheated, cupcake-tormented,
cake-tempted, pig-hormone-not-cutting-it, trapped-in-kingdom-of-felines,
synthetic-hormone-deprived, buddy-wants-a-human-playmate,
buddy-i-love-you-but-gimme-a-break,
exhausted, tired and broken

may have caused
certain gloomy thoughts
to clot your mind

but, remember

those little shitballs and Jasmine
are worth it,
even if the worst-case-scenario
comes to fruition:

we may no longer have money
but ample debt
we may no longer have sleep
but endless fatigue
we may no longer have sex
but barrels of self-lubricant

still,

those little shitball and Jasmine
are worth it

so,

stop worrying
and learn to love
our new life

i love you and three
balls of you-know-what

:)

Posted by hopeful @ 11:50 AM

October 19, 2011

Getting big so fast

Holy cow, time flies.

We're getting so big, so fast

Posted by hopeful @ 2:37 PM

September 28, 2011

This describes me well

My favorite line from this article:

These days, when I am home, I pump on the sofa in front of the TV - an image I hope will one day unburn itself from my husband's retinas. I imagine I look like some weird experiment in animal husbandry in which I am both the farmer and the cow.
-- Alison B. Hart

Posted by hopeful @ 12:55 PM

September 23, 2011

2 months later...

It is all fantastic!

I am loving life with my babies! I should have updated sooner but we've been busy :-).

Our summer was great, we got out with the babies right away, going to the pool, visits with family and friends, and even our annual vacation on Martha's Vineyard (during the hurricane no less!)

Having my husband and daughter (7.5yrs) off of work and school was essential to our success at taking care of the babies and enjoying our summer. We were like a finely tuned relay team. We didn't have to sacrifice a thing.

In keeping with the theme "we are super fortunate", a week after we got home from the hospital we, essentially, inherited a nanny. A friend of mine suddenly got transferred to Chicago and her fantastic nanny became available right when we needed her.

Our nanny started right when school started, 3 weeks before I return to work, so I have really been able to enjoy the last days of my maternity leave. Right away I knew I loved her so much I shaved two weeks off of my leave and will return to work sooner. I start work next Friday.

The only downside is that I can't afford this nanny. I can't really afford any of the infant care options for two children (that don't terrify me). When the babies are just a year older, there may be a few more options available. The piece of mind our nanny is giving us is worth the financial sacrifice and effort needed to recoup our savings.

I love where we're at and I wouldn't change a thing. I always remember when I didn't think any of this was going to happen for me. I feel blessed.

OH AND AS IF I HAVEN'T BEEN LUCKY ENOUGH... I am weighing in at 182, EIGHT pounds below my pre pregnancy weight! Truth be told I was down 4 lbs below pre prego weight about a week after birth once the swelling had gone down. I only had gained baby weight during prego-ness.

I am amazed I did so well, my first pregnancy was nothing like this one.

I am hoping to take that further and get myself down another 25-30 lbs.

With out further ado, let me introduce Angela and Stephen.

Posted by hopeful @ 12:58 PM

July 26, 2011

We did it!

On July 21st. I gave birth to my baby girl, Angela and baby boy, Stephen.  

Now we're home dealing with the disbelief.  

My husband and daughter have been amazing at getting our home organized, changing diapers, and taking care of me.  I'm recovering from my c-section and doing very well. All I have to do is breastfeed and get strong again.

Emotionally, I've been feeling very stable, strong and happy.  I was worried that I would feel the depression and fear I had after my first daughter.  I wouldn't be normal if I didn't feel a little emotional and anxious, but overall I feel great.

I haven't weighed myself yet because I still have my edema.  Once that alleviates I'll weigh in.  

HOLY COW, I forgot to mention that my twins were born at 38 weeks and they weigh 8lbs 2oz, and 7lbs 3oz.!  I had almost 16 pounds of baby in me!!
No wonder I was sooo big!!

I did feel like I was going to fall forward all the time!

Posted by hopeful @ 8:20 PM

July 18, 2011

3 more days left

Thank you all for the wonderful comments.

I don't have a lot of readers or commenters, but the ones I have are women (and bloggers) who I read and admire a ton. And have for years, that just makes me feel great!

I really appreciate the support right now because I am 3 days away from giving birth via a planned C-section and I'm definitely getting nervous about it.

I am anticipating an emotional whirlwind. There's so much brewing in me I can't even handle thinking about it right now without breaking down and crying.

I just wanted to check in and show how huge I am. I have gained 40 lbs now and the babies are big, each over 6.5 lbs. My infamous edema has surfaced again too. My legs from just above the knees down are huge, it's quite painful!

I will update with how I'm doing, even if I'm a little slow to.

Check me out...

Posted by hopeful @ 12:15 AM

June 5, 2011

31 weeks 22 lbs

Here I am at 31 weeks. I have 6 to 7 weeks, at most, left to go.

I've been doing very well, feeling well. My weight gain has stayed quite minimal. Last week at the doctor's I had gained 5 lbs which is the most I've gained in a two week period so far. That jump put me at 20 lbs officially, but I'm guessing I'm at 22 since being weighed there.

The weather is starting to really get hot now and my feet just started swelling on a regular basis, so I can tell this last month will be the toughest yet.

I've been a little powerless to the feeling of needing a lot of rest. I have been making sure I go easy on myself, but am getting nervous that I'm not ready and that there is a ton of preparation left to do. Yet my brain feels incapable of figuring out what actually remains to be done.

Emotions and anxiety levels are beginning to rise. I still feel like I'm holding it together better than I have in the past and have to just go with it.

I have more confidence lately, and for a while now, that I can handle what life throws me (ever since my mom passed away because that felt like the worst). Drawing from her strength as inspiration, I'll do it.

Here are my pics. My mirror and room are a mess! Pardon me.

Posted by hopeful @ 10:59 AM